{"id":6571,"date":"2024-02-07T16:15:23","date_gmt":"2024-02-07T16:15:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.design-prodigy.com\/testing\/jerome\/?page_id=6571"},"modified":"2024-02-07T16:18:09","modified_gmt":"2024-02-07T16:18:09","slug":"midnight-blues","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.design-prodigy.com\/testing\/jerome\/midnight-blues\/","title":{"rendered":"Midnight Blues"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t<div data-elementor-type=\"wp-page\" data-elementor-id=\"6571\" class=\"elementor elementor-6571\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-1bafdd2 e-con-full e-flex e-con e-parent\" data-id=\"1bafdd2\" data-element_type=\"container\" data-settings=\"{&quot;content_width&quot;:&quot;full&quot;,&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;gradient&quot;}\" data-core-v316-plus=\"true\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-7db1c4e elementor-widget__width-initial elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"7db1c4e\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<style>\/*! elementor - v3.17.0 - 01-11-2023 *\/\n.elementor-heading-title{padding:0;margin:0;line-height:1}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title[class*=elementor-size-]>a{color:inherit;font-size:inherit;line-height:inherit}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-small{font-size:15px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-medium{font-size:19px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-large{font-size:29px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-xl{font-size:39px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-xxl{font-size:59px}<\/style><h2 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">Midnight Blues<\/h2>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-2cafb49 e-flex e-con-boxed e-con e-parent\" data-id=\"2cafb49\" data-element_type=\"container\" data-settings=\"{&quot;content_width&quot;:&quot;boxed&quot;}\" data-core-v316-plus=\"true\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"e-con-inner\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-b9203b1 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"b9203b1\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<style>\/*! elementor - v3.17.0 - 01-11-2023 *\/\n.elementor-widget-text-editor.elementor-drop-cap-view-stacked .elementor-drop-cap{background-color:#69727d;color:#fff}.elementor-widget-text-editor.elementor-drop-cap-view-framed .elementor-drop-cap{color:#69727d;border:3px solid;background-color:transparent}.elementor-widget-text-editor:not(.elementor-drop-cap-view-default) .elementor-drop-cap{margin-top:8px}.elementor-widget-text-editor:not(.elementor-drop-cap-view-default) .elementor-drop-cap-letter{width:1em;height:1em}.elementor-widget-text-editor .elementor-drop-cap{float:left;text-align:center;line-height:1;font-size:50px}.elementor-widget-text-editor .elementor-drop-cap-letter{display:inline-block}<\/style>\t\t\t\t<p>When the difficulties of life seem overwhelming, the speaker&#8217;s spirit navigates choppy waters, longing for comfort and calm. These are periods of deep sadness. Desperate to calm the turmoil inside, they seek solace in the embrace of sleep amid the cacophony of roosters and the incessant hum of thoughts. Though the speaker is aware of the long-term effects on loved ones, she avoids the siren call of self-destruction even in the midst of chaos and despair. Every morning, a ray of light breaks through the darkness to show the way to recovery and atonement.<\/p><p>Writing gives the speaker a sense of purpose and fortitude, making them an inspiration to others facing their own struggles. Their words are filled with compassion and empathy, providing comfort to those who have suffered similar losses. Their comments strike a chord of empathy and understanding, comforting the wounded spirits who walk a similar lonely and painful path. The speaker welcomes life&#8217;s challenges and affirms the strength of love, resilience, and the unbreakable human spirit as they work towards wholeness.<\/p><p>Discouraged by life there<br \/>are times my vessel is<br \/>depleted and I want to die.<\/p><p>In those moments<br \/>when the tank is nearly drained,<br \/>delirious thoughts flow.<\/p><p>At midnight on this Oahu beach<br \/>I hear a thousand roosters crow<br \/>canceling the sound of ocean waves,<\/p><p>Placing headphones over ear plugs, I ask<br \/>come sweet sleep and escort tinnitus away<br \/>putting thoughts of sabotage to rest,<\/p><p>When sleep deprivation is endless,<br \/>like Niagara Falls I want to pull the plug,<br \/>and end it all.<\/p><p>When the HVAC won\u2019t cut off<br \/>and partner\u2019s snoring never ends<br \/>I want to push pause and escape.<\/p><p>Demented thoughts fill the tenth floor<br \/>though tempting I dare not step<br \/>beyond that open doorway,<\/p><p>It would be too easy to take a leap,<br \/>and prove what they always<br \/>said, \u201cI knew he was crazy!\u201d<\/p><p>but that is not my legacy.<br \/>Can\u2019t let my kids grieve for eternity,<br \/>because they\u2019d never know why<\/p><p>or allow my wife to wonder,<br \/>\u201cWhat did I do?\u201d<br \/>Though enticing I keep myself<\/p><p>from the sliding door, knowing<br \/>that path would be painful.<br \/>Finally dawn comes through the crucible of despair<\/p><p>lifting the veil leading to the warm green light<br \/>where I\u2019m comforted by blankets of love.<br \/>I write because nothing has been easy.<\/p><p>It\u2019s not easy now. 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